okay guys, this is me being uninspired going out looking for some….and i’m starting with this song. if i was still in high school full of emotional roller coaster, you know – teenage angst stuff, i would still write songs like this. no, not misery business, please, haley is queen. but, this:
i recorded this some time last year but it was one of the first few songs that i was really happy with when i started writing. i wrote based on my friends’ stories. i only wrote about my break up and post heartbreak drama mid 2010 but i couldn’t really get my words right and often changed it around so much. but i wrote a handful of songs within that year compared the last 3-4 years combined.
so then college happened and i was struggling to write. and i wrote this one based on a blog that i read.
it wasn’t the first time i wrote something based off a blog but i was happy that i finally wrote one since i finished school. until one day i was bored on a saturday night and decided to play around some chords with a bunch of random words thrown in. i’m embarrassed to show you the original version so here’s my college project version of it (which is not as great tbh lol but this one makes me cringe less). ALSO THE GUITAR PARTS unf
last year i only managed to write 5 songs. i’m happy with the songs. but. there’s this term that i wanna associate with to explain why it isn’t enough: printing. i’ve been recycling my ideas and i’m starting to see more and more similar patterns one after the other. some are deliberate though, to keep the story going, but it just shows that i’m quite under-inspired lately.
one of my goals for this year is to write every month. i have an idea (with lyrics written!) going but i’ve been putting it on hold because i’m looking for ways to rephrase the words better. and i wanted to dedicate this song to the people who i really care about, like the way when i started writing.
and then you have people like Sia talking about the ways they write their songs. perfection.
my favourite part is around 4:58, after she was done explaining, she was like, “that was mental, can we have a copy of that?” and it makes me go “i want to write like that!!” i want to be able to just sit down and let go, let whatever that i feel in my heart flow out and be a masterpiece.
Here’s the thing though. We write these songs in like, 40 minutes, and then we just send them to somebody, we just never really refer back to them ever again.
Sia is perfection. enough said. and one day i will write like her.