i’m sure a lot of people would agree with me with the fact that the year 2013 in particular has gone by so fast you just don’t know what to do with what’s left of twenty thirteen. lol
on a reflecting note, i’m so glad i’m ending the year with bidding icom goodbye. in many ways, i’m sad and constantly missing the people & the music but at the same time i realized that my time is definitely up. this year in particular i discovered that i have a huge interest in being the production manager & the media director (aka lady boss LOL) for all sorts of productions. but seriously though, i wouldn’t have discovered this side of me if i hadn’t sent in my application to work with icom. i never got the chance to be more than the chief videographer while i was a student. but i guess it also has to do with the longer i stayed in icom the more work (aka projects) i will be assigned to. aha
at the same time, i feel like i was going through a hell lotta grounding process this year. i don’t know how else to explain it, but i know that i wouldn’t have been the same person that i am now than i was maybe….6 months back when i wanted to resign from icom the first time (?).
change, is the most constant thing happening around, to and within us. i mean, i’m still not a big fan of change whenever things don’t go as planned, but i’d definitely not throw a tantrum whenever things don’t go my way. i have my own ways of doing things and i’m quite particular about it, especially when i have high hopes towards the outcome/conclusion of the resolved plans, so it used to frustrate me quite a lot but now i’m just like “okay let’s work around this”. i’m also quite reserved. i don’t easily open up to people. i especially take a whole lotta time when it comes to meeting & getting to know people. other times i just don’t wanna make the effort (because i’d think it’s just too much work) but now i’m like HELLO. MY NAME IS MELL. lol
i’ve learned to embrace change, to accept the fact that people and things come and go at their right time and there is not much that you can do about it. i’ve also learned to give change a chance, to not just wait for it to come but to make a difference based on your decision(s) because hey why not?! surprise the universe!! the idea of me doing an EP also open up the possibilities of working with new people. my originals are precious to me ok. getting my friends to work on them with me means getting them to understand where the core of the songs come from, making me in a way “vulnerable” as they take a step closer to a much personal side of me. just doing one song was a scary process.
but anywho, stormy weather was just another season for me this year, and it has helped me to feel confident for 2014. i’m not just ready for whatever i’m gonna be thrown at, but also for the things that i wanna do. freelancing, coming back to songwriting, producing a small show/a single… i could write a list of my new year resolutions but i feel like this time i just wanna let things go their own ways for the most part. i will have probably more of a daily/monthly resolution up to kick things off. all in all i’m excited for 2014!!!
there are so many things that i wished i could do this year, but going through the grounding process is what makes me wanna rise up and be kickin’ some ass in 2014. SO THE EXCITEMENT! xD December pictures:
last but not least…..
here’s to an awesome start to 2014!