i wanna read a book, and let my mind wander.
perhaps maybe even be someone else for a minute or an hour.

Amelia Parker has always been certain she was in love with Hayden Turner. Even when he was gone. Even when she forgot everything. Even when he tried to kill her.

i read this book last saturday; took me almost 12 hours to finish it. it was probably one of the most anticipating book i’ve ever read in my entire life. because i took this book to work with me, i would’ve easily put this aside and just read off the synopsis from Wikipedia or review blogs, but i didn’t. i actually resisted myself from ruining all the fun and adventures of reading a book, and i never regretted every bit of it.

timeless started off with an epilogue (as most books does), and that itself gave me an idea of what the main character was like; but he was not the main character. overall, the book has 4 different parts, a journey to 3 different eras, 2 different places, and several different kinds of beings. timeless is essentially about Amelia and Hayden from the beginning to the end; the love and sacrifices that they have to make in their choices, the pain they had to go through knowing that no matter how hard they tried, they were never gonna be together. and yet, their love for each other never seem to fade away, even when she’s forgotten who she really was, even after he tried to kill her.

the storyline, the way sittampalam carefully describes each character in each scene is just..captivating. no matter how much i wanted to put it down, there’s always elements of surprises in every word, every sentence, every page that just constantly keeps you at the edge of your seat. they are obvious flaws every 100 page or so, but the fact that i wanted to finish this book as fast as i can actually says something. i wouldn’t sleep the whole night if i had to. this book is just brilliant.

the demon who loves, and the angel who kills.


riding them faders.

nothing scares me more than a feedback during a live performance.
Yamaha LS9-32

studying in ICOM has been very exciting for me. since the first day of semester three, i couldn’t wait to get my hands on more…well, hands-on stuff. first semester was entirely an introduction, while second semester was more of understanding the basics and getting an idea of what this entire course is all about.

when i first learned about me being the FOH engineer for week 7 of Friday Performance, my first thought was like OWWWHHHH YEAH. but then, as the weeks went by, i realized that i was quite inexperienced in the field of live sounds. i got so nervous, i dreamt that i was gonna fail the entire show a week before the day. last wednesday after our first round of soundchecks, i dreamt that FP was over and that i can sleep peacefully and get ready for work the next morning. by thursday, i was losing it when i dreamt that i was being careless in my mix.

today, we had 2 more soundchecks after fine tuning the monitors. even after rounds and rounds of mentally preparing the entire show in my head, going from one band to another, it was still nerve wrecking for me as i have a silly amount of fear (slash paranoia) that things might not go as i wanted it to be. i couldn’t get over the fact that nothing is ever perfect, and that you just need to do your best; whatever happens, happened. learn from your mistakes now.

even though there was a (noticeable) feedback during the first (and only!) performance itself, i must say that all of the soundchecks and run-throughs that we had days and hours before today had certainly paid off. without them, i’d probably just give up there and then. my live sounds lecturer complimented saying that it was not bad for a first timer. i guess i should be proud of myself and just work on my EQ. mehhhh

heck, i am proud of myself. i did some amazing stuff out there, more than i would ever think of. imagine mixing all the mega stars’ concert… yes, i can dream.